There comes a time in a person’s life when they strive to be better. Or, at least I hope this is the case. Enrichment can come in many forms, from promising to call your mother more often, to taking up meditation, or finally learning to play the guitar that’s been sitting in your room for the last three years.
The goal I’ve set for myself is a biggie… I want to save my life.
Never will I forget not being able to walk the one mile required for the Presidential Physical Fitness Test when I was in the fourth grade. I also won’t forget my gym teacher announcing my weight of 120 pounds in front of all the other kids.
That childhood legacy followed me into adulthood. I remember waiting in line 40 minutes to ride a roller coaster, only to discover I didn’t fit in the seat. I remember the nights of binge eating, crying myself to sleep, and waking up the next day only to repeat the cycle. And I achingly remember how sometimes I wished I wouldn’t wake up the next morning, because it was just “too hard.”
I wish I didn’t have these lingering memories, but the truth is I always will. In the past, they’ve robbed me of my confidence and motivation, but not anymore. Now I tap them as a source of resolve, which I definitely need to stay on the personal journey I began 10 years ago—one I hope to take to a new level in the coming months.
Since beginning my weight loss journey in 2002, I’ve lost 120 pounds. That’s great, but I’ve also gained and lost 20 pounds repeatedly over the last five years. I have called this my maintenance mode, but the truth of the matter is I’m nowhere close to being finished. I guess that’s why they call it a journey.
Over the next six months, I plan to become more fit than ever before in my life. I’d like to lose 15 more pounds, gain muscle like it’s nobody’s business, and run, not walk, my first 5K race. These may seem like little goals to some, but I know where I’ve come from, and I can tell you better than most, it’s the little goals that add up.
I’ll be tracking my progress on Anytime Health. I’m at the mercy of some pretty fine trainers, namely Tim Arpin, AH’s beloved Tony Nicholson, and one of our newest additions to Anytime Fitness, Mike Prosnick. We’ll be working together to show that tracking diet and activity, and putting some good ‘ol fashioned time in at the gym will make things happen.
I can’t change what has happened in the past – that time has come and gone. What I can do is change the here and now, and in doing so I’ll change my future.
Join me on my journey for the most important goal, the journey to save my life.
As the title of this blog implies, I am not a Debbie Downer, just a Debbie Pias. (Sorry, bad one, I know). In reality, I want my readers to know I generally see the glass as half full, and I rarely miss an opportunity to crack a joke. So look forward to goofiness in future blogs.
Starting weight: 160
Body fat%: 34.2